I wake up early (for me) most days and dusk takes forever to get to. I don’t ever feel like going out during the day or night, sometimes I feel so underwhelmed that I feel overwhelmed but I hardly notice it. I work in a big blue house with flowers along the door and hanging down from the porch cover, walk 2 miles to drink a tall beer in the afternoon and watch the plants change day to day in the yards on the way. I miss taking intrusive street shots of strangers and drunk friends and pretty styled models I’m not sure if I like what’s left if it’s all that i’m making and not having the drive to do more. My work room is filling with more mirrors and window frames which make me feel nice and my flash has been out of batteries all month. I watch the kids on my street shoot a soccer ball at a basketball stand without a net or hoop and say hi back to the little girls with pretty beaded hair playing along the fences. I don’t feel lonely like I used to but I miss a lot.